Here's the deal. I want to be a match. A good match. A solid match. Not a straddling the fence maybe-yes-maybe-no match.
I want to be able to help.
I want to be able to hope.
I want to be able to do something constructive, positive, tangible.
I feel like, and maybe I'm reading too much into this, that perhaps the space in my life right now is for this. Was anticipating this on some level. Is allowing me time to do this.
So I'm hope hope hoping that next week's results mean I'm not done yet.